Hey hey hey.I just received a very interesting e-mail and I though of sharing with one and all.This goes out specially to all my Swytaz and frens out dere.Hey adek,it's for u too.Love you all..So here it goes..Romantic countries in the world...

H.O.L.L.A.N.D -------->Hope Our Love Lasts And Never Dies.
I.T.A.L.Y.------------>I Trust And Love You.
L.I.B.Y.A.------------>Love Is Beautiful,You Also.
F.R.A.N.C.E.---------->Friendships Remain And Never Can End.
C.H.I.N.A.------------>Come Here,I Need Affection.
B.U.R.M.A.------------>Between Us,Remember Me Always.
N.E.P.A.L.------------>Never Ever Part As Lovers.
I.N.D.I.A.------------>I Nearly Died In Adoration.
K.E.N.Y.A.------------>Keep Everything Nice,Yet Arousing.
C.A.N.A.D.A.---------->Cute And Naughty Action that developed into attraction
K.O.R.E.A.------------>Keep Optimistic Regardless of Every adversity.
E.G.Y.P.T.------------>Everything's Great,You Pretty Thing!
M.A.N.I.L.A.---------->May All Nights Inspire Love Always.
P.E.R.U.-------------->Phorget (Forget)Everyone...Remember Us.
T.H.A.I.L.A.N.D.------>Totally Happy.Always In Love And Never Dull.

Yah,so there was it.Now I'm just waiting for u to tags and tell me which countries you gerlz love the best.I love FRANCE and THAILAND.Hehe!Till den..

11:47 PMY

It's 202am.N I'm still not asleep.Actually I was,but my bro wake me up to answer a called from someone I dun noe.After which,I cant get to sleep again.I thought of calling Pyja,but I dun noe,just got the feeling she is chatting with him on the pone.So I've decided not to disturb them lah.Then went to msg Leah.She was watching this Indon drama series.Okie,didnt wanna disturb her too.I wanted to call Ayen,but guess she must be online with Achit.So didnt call.

With all the 3 Swytaz busy with their stuff,I went out of my room and eat!I was a lil bit hungry.So I ate the food which my packed from Cik Siah house just now.Ate it while reading some blogs.Hehehe.Okie,now I'm bored!!But I guess I can survive.I dont know why,but everytime I feel bored and wanted to give up on life,I'll think of Kyo.Not that,I'm attracted to him or what.But if you know what this guy is going through,you'll get what I mean.I'll always said this to myself "Kalau Kyo boleh survive,asl aku tak boleh?".By then,I'll be alright.

N yah,went to break fast at Teck Whye today.Cik Siah cooked Mee Siam which is my favourite!!Like usual,break fast with all my cousins,relatives and nephews.Yah,I'm an aunt of 7 nephews and 1 niece.Hehehe.Only 3 are in S'pore.The rest are all in Malaysia.After breaking fast,most went back home.But adek stayed coz I asked her too.Furthermore,my dad was going to send her home.So we sholat terawih togeda with my dad and the Cik Siah whole family.After which,we just talked and relek abit togeda.We went home at about 10pm.Send adek back to JE,den my whole family headed home.

As for today,I'm gonna break fast at Clementi.My only aunt from my mum side.The rest are all in KL.Gonna meet Muhd Irfan Azhari.It has been a week since I met him.Nak kener sunat dier hari nie!!Irfan is also my nephew.I guess the closest nephew.Coz I'll always drop by my aunt's place to meet him eversince he was born.Yah,I love this kid.But he loves to cry.A lot of patience is needed when taking care of him seh.Still,he has already capture my heart with his sweet smile.N he has a dimple on his cheek when he smiles.I'm in love with the smile.=)

Hmm,as for sunday,all my relatives are breaking fast at my house.Okie,it's gonna be a busy day for me.I better start tidying up my room cuz it's a total mess.I havent been tidying it since exam ends.Meja aku kalah orang blajar kat University.Penuh dgn buku2 dan majalah.Hehehe.Okie,will tidy it up real soon.My mum pon dah nagging about it since the start of the week but I'll always pretend I'm sleeping when she is talking.Hehehe.*Doser tau*

My mum woke up just now.She wasnt feeling well.She's having her headache.Remind her not to wake me up for sahur as I've already eaten.N she goes,"Oh,really ah?".Aper seh maksud?Hehehe.If I were to said that to Pyja,confirm I'll kener alik,"Tak der maksud nyer lagy!!"Hahaha.

Chatting with her is usually funny for me.She look upon me as her sis.But to me,I dont really suit it.In our conversation,she will always say,"Faham tak?".N I'll have to keeping saying "Yer,kiter paham awak lah".Hahaha.She will keep asking me that question each time she ends a few sentences.Pnat tau nk kener jawab samer soalan jer.N know what's the reason she keep asking that,she sais that I might be dreaming and not listening to her.Or even worst I culd be falling asleep.Hey,I do admit I love to sleep but not to the extent when people is talking I wuld sleep seh.That is just so rude!N I've never done it before k.

Yah,today was her last day of work.So happy for her but I dont know if she is happy that she is finally not working.I feel that she seems reluctant to let go of her job.Maybe she feel attached to it already.Tapy per lah awak,awak attached dengan orang lagy bagos kan.Hehehe.Dah der yg tgu pon.Hehehe.

Oklah,gonna do some editting of my frenster profile.Then,maybe I'll head for my bed.Till den...

1:52 AMY

Hey.It's the 6th day of Ramadhan.*baru 6 hari?!aku ingat dah lamer seh!*Lucky for me,this year I had no problem fasting.Recalling last year,it was hell.This year,there was no cramps,headache,dehydration or wadsoever!Thank god for that!

My week has rather been a calming except for some few news that I gotta know and meeting few people which surprise me.*will go into detail later*

I went to NUH on Monday.While people are screaming either at the Singapore Indoor Stadium or at home,I was screaming in the hospital.No,I didnt have any surgery or wad.I scream for the same reason as others.HADY MIRZA IS THE SINGAPORE IDOL!!I've got no choice but to do it in the hospital as I was there to visit my Mak Long.She got infection and was hospitalised that day.Kakak,adek,me Auntie Ida n even Mak Long were all happy that Hady won.I was happy to see Mak Long smiling once again.It has been a long since I've since her smile.I was just so elated.Few funny incident do happen there esp when kakak took our BP.Hehehe.Damned hilarious.In all,I was glad to see my Mak Long happy.I hope she will stay positive.

On wed,I accompany my Nek Mok to Alexandra.I went to fetch her at Jurong East,n I was damned shock to see my Mak Long was already at home.Totally grateful that she was finally able to go home.After Zohor prayer,Nek Mok n me made our way to Alexandra.She has a check up on her lap-band operation.This was my first time sending her.Usually,Mak Long will be the one who send her but since she wasnt well,I voulenteer myself.N guess what,the doctor asked me a lot of question!!My face turn dumb the moment I was bombard with a lot question.He even asked my opinion about my Nek Mok condition.Alamak,aper aku nak jawap seh!He then refer Nek Mok to the dietician as Nek Mok wasnt losing enough weight.Okay,so the talk with dietician was like my Food and Nutrition lesson.It was totally the same.I tried my best to focus as there was only Nek Mok n me in the room.I culdnt doze off sak.Finished everything at about 430pm.We reached there at 200pm seh!

After sending Nek Mok home and took some food to break fast from dere,adek asked me to accompany her to Bazaar at Jurong West.Okay,being me,who cant resist Bazaar,I tag along.N gosh,she met a lot of her frens there.N yeah!I got my rojak bandung!!!Love it seh!!Then went to my dad's shop which was nearby to give him suji which is our favourite.Hehehe.On the way to my dad's shop,I met one of long-tym sistaz,Fyza.I totally miss her lyk crazy!!I flustered when I saw her and without second though,I scream out her name.I just miss her lah.

Immediately,I called Ayen.She was shocked too.After which,we talked till I reached home.It was a 35 mins talk.I miss talking to her.I miss her voice.N yes,I was thirsty while talking to her.We laughed at our stupid jokes.Hahaha.It has been a long kan ayen.Well,we did it again.N we will continue to do so.Yes,we will!!

Infact,I called Ayen again at 1030pm.We talked about everything we missed out a week ago.It was a relief.I nearly breakdown.I just miss talking to her.Pyja joined in an hour later.We talked alot!We laughed!Then,Leah joined us.Same stuff happened.Then Ayen has to go.So while Leah,Pyja n me chatted on fone,Ayen n me chatted on MSN.At about 1am,Pyja gotta go as she need to go werk later on.So Leah,Ayen n me chatted on MSN till 330am.Guess what,the Swytaz has their on nicknames now.Let me tell you okie. Ayen and Pyja are Squidward.Leah is Panda Bear.They have a name for me too.But I'm NOT going to reveal!!NEVER!!!Hahahaha...

I guess yesterday was my best day ever for this week.I miss teasing my Swytaz.I miss provoking them and making them pissed with me.I miss their sarcastic laugh.I miss their sarcasm.And above all,I miss them DEADLY!!!Seems like I'm missing all the negative stuff huh.

Well,we share a unique r'ship.We are always loggerhead with each other.We are always quarrelling.We are always at each other throat.We always smack each other not with praises but the opposite.We dont hug often.Instead we smack,pinch,bite or even slap each other.Worst,it will be me who get all this!!But recently,I didnt received any.Dah taubat agak nyer dorang.Hahaha.Yah,that's us.People will not understand but we do understand ourself.We do love each other.We do need each other all the time.We cant live normally without each other.Everything we do,we have each other on our mind.It's hard to understand us.N some just cant.

I'm happy to have them.Swytaz,just remember this k..

Keep smiling,keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me,for sure
That's what Swytaz are for
For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
For the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember
I am always here if u need me.

Okie lah..Till den...

ps:missing Pyja now..she didnt call or msg me today!!Pnat ehk dek?

12:06 AMY

Everything has got betta.Infact,it's finally over.We have overcome the test and we managed to pass it.So indeed,this is what I can call True Frenship.The past few days hasnt been great.Frankly,it's the worst and I guess my tears gland were rather active.

Overcoming this difficult path in our frenship made me realise something.We are actually so damned close.We are tied to each other in the heart.And it is a dead knot.Which means,we cant get out of each other life.Other than this,I've realise that we are just lyk normal sibling.We quarrel,fight,scold each other but in the end,we still get back togeda.The only different is that we dont live under the same roof.Oh,Gosh.How lucky I am to have alot of sibling!

I guess if it is not because of this test we've been thru,I will never know how close I am to them and how well we are connected.There is a saying goes "We onli learn to appreciate when we have lose it".Lucky for me,I've not lose them permanently.N yes,I treasure them more now.All their msges touched me straight to the heart.One that really touched me is "We will all wait for you to come back by ourside".I never knew that they are so understanding and willing to forgive me.N I guess all of us will never forget this test.I promise you gerlz that we dont have to go thru this again.One test is enuf.Am I right?Let's just close this bad chapter of our Switz life and began a new one.Hopefully,we can make this new chapter a really sweet one.Hehehe...

Today is also the 1st day of Ramadhan.Went to Bukit Panjang to break fast with all my relatives.It was great.It has been a long tym since we met.So indeed,we catch up with each other alot.Next week,I'll be breaking fast at Teck Whye on friday.As for saturday,I'm not sure yet.But on sunday,it will be at my hse.I really love the month of ramadhan.I'll definitely meet my relative every weekend.N it will only happen during this mth.Best kan.

But the sad thing is,my closest aunt wont be able join us.She is rather sick and cant be in crowded places.I'm so close with her.I really miss the time when we used to joke ard like nobody business.It's sad...Furthermore,my Tok Haji oso is no longer around.Haix,miss miss him.This Raya is definitely not gonna be happiest Raya for my family.Too much has happened.N it's not a positive ones.I guess God is trying to test us.It's okie.We accept it.Hanya Allah sajer yg tahu hikmah disebaliknya.

Okie lah...till den..

12:13 AMY

Love is everything to everybody.Without it,the world would be dead.So always tell someone you love them.

Today,I've spend most of the time reflecting.While walking by the park,I've realised one thing.How can I reflect on what true frenship is if I dont have any frens?Everybody needs a fren.I've nvr met anyone who has no frens.When watching Miami Vice,even Ricardo and Sonny need each other during their mission.Btw,this movie is the best ever.It's really amazing.

The past few days hasnt been great without my switz.Infact,it was the worst!!It truly made me realised that life without friends and family is useless.It's betta to be dead!!

Their love for me never lessen even afta what I did to them.I realised that in a friendship,I shuldnt judge by the amount of love I could give to them.It's more of what I could give my frens and make them feel happy and comfortable by my side.With that in place,love will follow through.And all the negative quality will be out of the way.

Gerlz,I know you be reading this.I'm sorie for the stupid move I've made.But I just dont wanna get bitten twice.It's enuf that we have lost her.I'm just afraid that it will repeat.I hope you forgive me.You dont have to wait long.I'll be back real soon.I culdnt live life normally without you gerlz.All your msges touched me.I guess we all have shed enuf tears.Let's stop aite or else S'pore might suffer a flood.*smilez*

10:52 PMY

Hey.How's life been going on for me?Well,hasnt been that great.I've been doing alot alot of reflecting.Must been wondering,what is it that I'm reflecting about?I was reading this book and I came across this story.It just make me think,maybe I am not worth being a fren to anybody.Furthermore,I'm afraid of losing her.But I do want her to be happy with him.I dont wanna be selfish and try to ruin her happiness.She is happy.I'm happy for her too.Maybe I should just be happy for her from far.I guess it's betta that way.

I know some are damned mad with me because I've choose this path.I guess I was too harsh.But you were harsh with your words too.It's okie.I accept whatever you wanna sae.Put me on your hate list and hate me forever if you want to.Wadever it is,I'll never forget the time we spend to togeda,going to sch togeda and the one thing I'll never ever forget is our long midnight chat that culd never ever be done again.I love you but I dont deserve your love.I know that after reading this,you are gonna hate me straight to the core.Okie,I respect that.Wish you all the best with him k.

Be strong.Try to be strong without me.I know you can do it.You got the others with you.You will forget me soon.Get another sistaz who can always be there for you since I can never be the one who will try to confort you when you have the problem.Whenever you called,I was never able to answer.I am the sista who you can never turn to when you have a problem.But you have always been the one answering my calls in the middle of the night when I facing problem.It's clear enough I'll never be able to repay you.I'm just not worth to be your fren.Stop shedding tears.I'm not worth the tears.That special him in your heart is the one who deserve it.I hope you will get to meet him soon afta he face the law.Be strong k.Hate me if you want.I'm prepared.But dont love me,I dont deserve it.

From now on,get your source of strength and security from someone else as I culd no longer provide you with it.Betta still,be your own source of strength and security.Dont always depend on me or even the others.Be happy with what you have.As I've always said to you,"Dont take life too seriously,You wont be able to enjoy it".I will no longer be forcing you to msg him.It's all up to you.I've just got this to say,He is a great guy.If you truly like him,dont let him go.You deserve him k.Dont use me as a factor.He is no longer that someone in my life.He is just a fren of mine.Nah,he is not.I dont deserve to be a fren of anybody.Stop loving me now.Dont continue loving me till your last breathe.You will suffer.Hate me.Hate me as much as you want.But dont love me,I really dont deserve your love which is so pure and innocent.I dont!I truly dont.

I've made my stand.I guess you have yours too.Wadever it is,I accept.I know saying sorry is not enuf.Maybe you wont even accept it.But still,I'm gonna say it.I'm truly sorry.If you all understands,I hope you will give me some time alone to do my reflections on what a true frenship should be like.If you dont,I guess I've lost all of you.

11:26 PMY

10:28 PMY

Oh gosh,it has been a really tiring weekend.I'm so damned tired,I didnt sleep well since sunday.I cant figure out why.

So after posting the previous post,went to get ready to 'run off' to clementi.After chatting with Leah on the pone,den I went out.It was about at 3pm.The rain finally stop.*mcm tau jer aku nk kluar*.Took 99,just lyk how I usually get to school.N it has been a routine.It is also a routine for me to usually fall asleep in the bus.So yah,fall asleep and when I woke up,I was already at Chevron.Okie,that's not unusual.It's always been like this.

Upon reaching my Obek place,Kak Lia was actually doing a slide show of Irfan.So I kinda help out Kak Lia with it.We made it so perfect and funny.Even my abg Farid said that it's hilarious and I was very cheeky to come up with some of the dialog.Hehehe.Well,that's just me!So had dinner with Kak Lia.Watched Sutun 2 with the family and some other family.Went home at about 1030pm with my parents.

As usual,saturday was a hectic day for me.Early morning I woke up just to washed all my laundry.N it was really damned early sak.I woke up at 830am okie.N I slept at 1am the previous night.My eyes was half closed while doing the laundry seh.Done that,I went to my aunt's house.Helped her to teach my lil cousin some of his homework.At about 1pm,we get ready to go to clementi as my aunt was also invited for Irfan's Doa kesyukuran.Went out of the house at about 2pm.Took 99 again,and sleep again.This time when I wake up,I already reached Clementi.Gosh!That's bad!!

When I reached there,most of my aunts n uncle was already there.My grandma n nek mok was also there.Miss them so muchy much larh!!Aysha was also dere.Well,she met her 'someone' there.Hehehe.I keep laughing whenever I tink of it.I just find it so funny and gosh,it is really sucha connection.So yah,just chat with anak2 sdare obek Lan till the event end.Biaser lah ehk,gossip2 sikit,kutuk2 org.Then help out with the clean up.Pnat sak!!Dah lah anak sdare obek Lan smua maner tah pegy,tinggal satu dua jer.Leave everyting to me n sibling to clear.Takpe,aku redha.Hahaha.

After that clearing up all,went to jurong east.I kena scold by Aysha for giving Fairuzzi her number.*si Fai nie pon satu,pegy blg dier.*.Okie,sorie dek.But atleast u both are frens back kan.Okie per.Biar frens jer k,Jgn lebih2 tau.Hahaha.Rested there.And even fall asleep.So damned tired!!The rest were all at the living room watching Rempit,a new m'sia movie.Gonna borrow it from Aysha if she allow ah.Heard that it's not hers.Went back at about 11 plus.Reached home,took a quick shower and straight away headed for my beloved bed!!!

Sunday!!!I was trying my luck again.Wondering what it is?Well,I was trying my luck if I culd watch Steven perform on stage.I've missed him performing twice.I tot I was nvr able to watch him perform,but that sunday,I finally get to see him in action!!!It was a blast!!Thou it was short,but I still enjoyed it.He is back!!After watching him,the 4 switz went to Bugis Street in search for my hand sock and Ayen's small sling bag.Btw,Ayen was gorgeous on that sunday!Hehehe.N yah,we did get all of our stuff.Even Pyja bought a similar bag like ayen.

After which,we went to Coffee Beans for some lil switz chat.It was a really emotional chat but at the same time we were shocked by some news as well.It was really the most emotional chat we ever had.We bare it all.Haix,just wanna sae this,Be strong gerls..If Kyo boleh survive,asl kiter tak boleh?N remember,Dont take life too seriously!!You will never be able to enjoy it.

Oklah..till den...Gonna post some pix taken drg Steven gig.It isnt of great quality but still okie lah...Njoy!

9:00 PMY

Before I start with today post,I'm just so pissed at some people who tooks advantage of switz.It so damned frustrating okie.I'm gonna make clear here,you people are on my hate list now!!Fuck!!So irritated!!Okie,stop it Mas.Getting angry with people like these doesnt get you anywhere!!!If I get to know they do it again to my switz,I wont be just typing it here but I'll do something about it!!Get out of our life and go settle your own life!!!

YEAH!!HOLIDAYS ARE IN!!I'm so glad it's holiday now.I can rest,chill and do some catch up with my peepz and switz.I love that!!But I do have to tone down abit as fasting month is getting near.Nak taubat lah kater kan.Exams are also over.That was such a big relief!!Finally the burden was taken off my shoulder.

I was able to handle my BFD paper preety well as I did revise the impt topic.So it was kinda a breeze.But still there are some question which set me thinking and eventually makes me sleepy.So what I did was,I just wrote something which was not even connected to the question.I tried so I feel great.

So did AFD revision with Ayen and Leah on tuesday.Well,we met at 4pm and went to the void-deck to study.So we did so for abt 10 mins when Ayen started to start talking about the movie Gubra.N I was the only one who have not watched it.End up,we went to Leah hse to watch that movie.Lotsa things happened in her room espcially with Aiman.Ayen was also injured due to Aiman behaviour.Luckily I wasnt the victim.But I was the one who comforted Aiman after he was being scolded by her aunt(Leah).So manja lah him.

After watching the movie which ends at about 7 plus,we continue our revision once again.I wasnt so in da mood so I just lay down at Leah's bed and watch them revise.At about 9pm,I went back home.They continue study at the void deck due to some unforseen events.At about 10pm,I received a call from Ayen requesting me to go down and help them with the revision.Being me who is so damned lazy,I get them to come to my house.So we studies till about 11 plus before they all return home.

The day of the exams!!Looking at the way Leah revise her notes makes me panic.So i start to revise too.Hahaha.I was able to balance the trial balance and bank reconciliation.Okie.That is great.But my control account?I totally dont knoe how to do it!!!So I just put the item anyhow seh.Aaaahhhh...biarlah.It'z over.I dont wannt think about it after this!!It'z over.It'z over.It'z over!!

Something happened on wednesday night which makes me so touched by my switz.I was having this very very bad headache and my tummy was like merciless on me that nite.As usual,Pyja will call me afta she finish her night class and we usually will chat till wee hours.But that nite,I didnt answer her calls n msges.I was just to damned lazy to even pick up the pone.Then when Ayen called,I answer coz I was getting irritated.She said pyja was looking for me.N I was like oh,okie.Few mins afta that,Steven called.He also said that pyja was looking for me.N I go oh,okie once again.Only at midnight,I msg pyja and told her what happened to me.

I cant believed that pyja actually tell every switz that I didnt answer her call.Thinking back,It was rather funny sak.But I totally appreciate her concern.Dont worry lah switz,I'm not dead yet.So be happy you dont have to attend any funerals yet okie.

Today I was left alone at home.Mum n Dad are out to dun noe where and I have no choice but to stay at home coz no one is gonna send my lil bro to sch.Well,nevermind.I'm gonna run to my aunt's house at clementi.Atleast I can play with my dear Irfan.Yup,so I'm gonna get ready now...

till den..

Upcoming Events

-Irfan's Doa kesyukuran
-Steven's gig

12:47 PMY

Hey.It has been so slack for the past few days.It's either I'm sleeping or watching TV or taking on the pone till dawn.It was really slack!!

Even school was slack.There were only few lesson as all topic has been covered n now is only revision week.We even went home early.N on friday,there was no school.Best sei.But my another test paper is coming.It's gonna be BFD tmr and AFD on wednesday.Afta that holiday till 15 October 2006!!Yahooooo!!!

N yah,my dear lil muhd Irfan Azhari is having his 1st doa selamat this coming saturday.Kat bawah blk seh.Grand habis!!Hehehe.N it'z not even his bday.I wonder how it will be lyk if it's his bday.Mite be in the hotel sak!!!Rich kid?Nah..his parents n grandparents are rich.Furthermore,he is the 1st grandson n 1st son.Wad is there more to say..He is just lucky.

I love all my 5 switz!!Okie,I know you all know that but Im just gonna write a lil something about each of them.Switz,if anyting I sae here makes u unhappy n u are offended,plz forgive me.Do come n talk to me abt it if u want to.I'm all prepare!!

The history of the 6 switz..
It all started with only the 3 of us,Leah,Ayen n Me.Then beginning of this year,Pyja started to hang ard with us.N afta,our dear F stopped joining us,Pyja was kinda her replacement.It was awkward at 1st.With Pyja ard,we kinda didnt behave our own self.But gradually,we clicked n were all out.Then school start in May,get to know Faizal n Steven.At 1st,they were only our buddies.But afta hanging out with them,pyja look upon them as our switz.We love each other company.The official date that the 6 Switz are formed is 6th July 2006.Hehehe...

Leah
I met her way before.We were only 5 when we 1st met.We grew up togeda and now 13 years has passed,we are still frens and still tolerating each other irritating behaviour.She is the most stubborn amg the switz but she is also one who knows me just too well.She can read my mind.She knows when I'm down.She just knows.I love her "manja" attitude.Her laughter always makes me smile.She is hardly down but when she is,I try to be dere for her.She is my reflection.We kinda have same attitude and behaviour.Right gerl?Hehehe.I love u larh!!!

Ayen
We were in same class for five years.Our frenship has been a on and off ones.We went thru alot togeda.We had lotsa arguement and fights.We used to hate each other.But as tym goes by,we begin to love each other.Eventhou,she always scold me,she pamper me the best.With her,I behave like a small kid.Always trying to pissed her off.Always wants to get tings done my way!I never had a big sister and I look upon her as one.She is the big sister I ever had.I love the way she showered me with her invisible love n care.I love it whenever she hugs me.She makes me feel safe.She's the one who always has been tolerating my worst behaviour.Thanks gerl.I love u larh!!!

Pyja
We were once close.Then we drifted apart.Now,we are close as ever.With her,I cant seem to understand why but I feel that I have to protect her from all the unhappines.I need to protect her.She is always "manja" with me.I've pampered her.Some used to say I pampered her too much.But she has grown up.She has matured.She gets emotional at tyms.She is trying to make up the tym she didnt spend her tym with us.But gerl,I love you no matter wad.You are not gonna lose me unless you want to.N that'z a promise made to you.Eventhou,you are stubborn,I know how to handle you.You are lyk a lil sis to me.Sorie if i'm being to protective.I love u larh!!!

Sufian aka Steven
A sunshine in my life.He captivate my heart with his care and concern.He knows how to make me happy.Yah,ppl says he is irritating but I dont tink so.I love him because of that.His small actions makes my day.I click well with him.He has always been dere for me evensince we knew each other.He never leave me alone to face the world.He knows when I'm down and not afraid to ask me directly if I'm okie.I really appreciate that.Whenever I'm down,just by looking at his video,voice n pix,I'll be happy n smiling back again.We connect well,that it's even beyond what the others could imagine.He will always entertain my crazy behaviour.Nothing is ever enough for me to repay him.I love u larh!!!

Ijal
An unpredictable boy.I always thinks of him as me but he is the male version of it.He respect me alot.He dont asked me as much n he respect my privacy.I believe that he tinks that if I want ppl to know,then I'll tell.He is a very gentleman guy.Hardly I buys drink in school.He will be the one buying.Everyday without fail.I appreciate it.His behaviour is like a lil bro of mine.Always makes me wanna correct everytings he does.From doing his shoelace,writing neatly,packing his bag.He is just like a lil bro to me.But a very tough one!I love his attitude of not bothering what ppl tinks of me.That is just so like me sak.I love u larh!!!

There,all my tots abt my switz are out.I love you guys very much.I really hope we wuld stay togeda n bond even closer.Hope ntg is gonna break us up.If sumting or someone gonna break us up,rmmbr the happy times we share togeda,rmmbr the tym we held on to each other...N most imptly,rmmbr how precious our frenship is.It isnt easy how we get togeda seh...You guys are greatly miss n loved by me!!!Muax,muax,muax,muax,muax!!!

5:52 PMY

I am now reading the book Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul.N I found some quote made me think and would love to share it.Hope it does make some impact in you as it has already to me.

Relationships--of all kinds--are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely,with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your finges. You may hold on to some of it, but most will spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

Everybody Doesnt Have to Love Me
Not everybody has to love me or even like me. I dont necessarily like evrybody I know,so why should everybody else like me? I enjoy being liked and being loved,but if somebody doesnt like me,I will still be okay and still feel I am an okay person.I cannot make somebody like me, any more than someone can get me to like them.I dont need approval all the time.If someone does not approve of me,I will still be okay.

It Is Okay to Make Mistakes
Making mistakes is something we all do,and I am still a fine and worthwhile person when I make them.There is no reason for me to get upset when I make a mistake.I am trying,and if I make a mistake,I am going to continue trying.I can handle making a mistake.It is okay for others to make mistakes,too.I will accept mistakes in myself and also mistakes that others make.

Other People Are Okay and I Am Okay
People who do thing I dont like are not necessarily bad people.They should not necessarily be punished just because I dont like what they do or did.There is no reason why other people should be the way I want them to be.People will be whatever they want to be.I cannot control or change them.They are who they are,we all deserve basic respect.

You gain strenght,courage and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face.You are able to say to yourself,"I lived through this horror.I can take the next thing that comes along."

11:31 PMY

Hey dere.It's holiday for the secondary and primary schools kids.But only one week.For me,it's gonna be a month.I'm looking forward to it.But still,wad am I gonna do for that one month?Tak kan nak gemok kan diri seh..hahaha

Well,had a Kenduri on saturday.My uncle is going to Dubai.He is gonna werk dere.Helped out dere since noon eventhou the kenduri start in the evening.I helped out my Granny with the cooking.It was an experience.Learned lotsa cooking tips too.Hehehe.Stayed dere till about 11 plus cz my mum helped to clear.I've done my share in the day,so I didnt helped much at night.

As for Sunday,went to East Coast.My dad's friend had a picnic dere.So he kinda asked my family to join in.So yup,relek by the beach till 9 plus.Had a long chat with Pyja abt our switz and all.N only managed to sleep at 2am eventhou I was gonna have my office test at 830am on that day.

Yup,had my office test that monday.I didnt know how do to quite alot of qn.But still,I tried my best.Afta the test,went home.Reached at abt 1230pm and sleep till 630pm.Lamer sak!!Hehehe.

Tuesday,send my uncle to the airport.His flight was at 1135pm.We get out of the house at 9pm.Finally,he has to go in at 1035pm,leaving his wife n 3 children behind.I was sad too.He was one of the best uncle I had!!I hope he will do fine dere.Take Care Uncle Han.Afta that,we went to Adam's Road for supper.It was Uncle Anuar bday so he was giving us a treat.Thanks Uncle.Yah,so I reached home at abt 12 plus.Straight go to ZzZzZzZ land.

As for today,sch was slack.We reached school at 11am.Went for Accounts class and go home!!Pathetic sak!!Tau aku tak gy skola.Reached home,sleep n watch TV.But now,updating blog ah.

It hasnt been a great week.Lotsa have been happening.But I'm still coping well.My switz are dere thou I miss steven very much.It's onli been two days since I last saw him but it feel so long!!! Harap2 dier dtg skola seh bsk..Miss his stupid crappy talk.His irritating enthic.I juz miss him lah!!!

7:57 PMY

10:20 PMY

It's Friday and today is Teacher's Day.Also it is NurAlisha Birthday!!Happy 1st Birthday my dear.Hope You make your mummy proud aite!

School has been great.Projects are mostly done except for one which is TKS.Still in the process of typing.Exams are also coming in.Monday will be my first paper which is Office.Gonna get tested on using Microsoft Access.Damned I'm so weak in that!!My gosh,I hope I culd do well in it seh.On wednesday,the 4 switz were crazy.We took stupid picture using my camera when I discovered my hp culd took multi shots!!But I guess I'll just post the decent pixs.The stupid pics are only accessable for my beloved 5 switz.Hehehe.

I went to visit Irfan Yesterday.He look different now.I shall post his new pic as well when I have the tym.My kak Lia is rather unwell.I'm so worried about her.Women after birth are the most vunerable sak.

A talk with one person ysrtdy remind me of that special him.N so happened I saw someone who is like him on the way back home.Oh,fark!!Why does this have to recalled back?!I tot i'm over with u!!I'm gonna erase you from my mind.I'm much more happier with my life now with my 5 switz.I dont want go thru it anymore.Peepz who are reading this,dont ask me anyting.I'm sure u wanna me to go on with my life happily right.Ur concern is appreciated!

N yah,my dad just informed me that he wanna go visit Irfan.He has not seen him since his birth.So yup,I'm meeting my Manjer again!!Yahoo.Oklah,I gotta prepare.Havent bath sak!!

Till Den...see yah..

6:07 PMY

The Precious: Ratu Masrurah
Born: Fourth June
My Diamonds: My Family!! =)
My Ruby: Anne & Camy
My Sapphire: Irfan
My Emerald: Rahmat
My Pearl: Ijal & Steven




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