.:``Pretending Is My Best Forte``:.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Hello Hello people. Hope you all are doing great. It's Sunday once again. God!! I've been so tired for the past week sey.

Work has been tiring. I'm taking the First Aid Course. Exam is this Friday (18th July 08). Hope I will pass since 8 has always been my lucky number. =). Workload has been piling up for the past few weeks. Not forgetting difficult people who just love making my life dreadfully miserable. I feel myself like a gangsta who keep getting into arguements with people at work.

Yup!! That's just me. I can be nice,be very nice if you are nice to me. But once you trigger me,sorry lah ehk. Tiada Maaf Bagimu. =).

Last weekend was lepak. It was pay day on Friday and I went shopping at Bugis & Far East. I spent alot. Now I totally tight up for money. I'm thinking of going back to McD. Working during weekend would be a great time to spent my time fruitfully. It's better earning money than spending money mah.

As for Saturday,I was a good gerl. Since Ibu & Baba went to Indonesia for wedding ceremony,I stayed at home with my sibling. I only went out at 10pm to meet Fyza & Emy who came down Jurong to lepak with me.

Joining us was Ezat & Mirul followed by Camy & Af then the rest of my McD sibling. =). We lepak till 530am. Sharing every thing we felt,laughing at every single silly stuff we did. N yah,not forgetting fulfilling our hunger pangs. Emy ordered some food from McD and we had it delivered to the void deck ehk. Ader standard ehk lepak,order McD sey. Hehe!!!

As for Sunday,it was a full packed day. Feached Ibu & Baba at theairport around 12noon. Then off we went for some wedding ceremony at 3 different places. Met Prince at one of the wedding. By 7pm,we were so tired. Went home and all went dead. Haha!! Tdo lah maksod aku ehk... =p

Just Look At Prince's Hair.. Cute kan.. =p

His Masam Face. But I Love It. =)

Telling me About How His Leg Got Some Scratches.. Cute-Ness Ehk...

I woke up at 10pm and text msg Ree. She came to Jurong. Just wanna lepak as we have not met for a long time. So we lepak till 2am. N so much things happened. So many things that SHOULDN'T have happened. Not regretting,but I just don't wish to do it again. At least from now till after Hari Raya. =p

I was on MC the next day. I had stomach flu. Keep vomiting & going to the toilet. I was so weak lah sey. I only went to the doctor at about 4pm. By then,I was slightly better.

Weekdays past fast. As usual,get into arguments with people at work and department meeting trigger some bigger arguments with the Heads of department. N I've been informed to be prepared having a heavier workload as there will be a Hypermart opening up soon. Which means more recruit. N yes,more cashier assessment booklets to be done and follow up. Damn!!

Went & meet up with Pyja on Thursday. We went to Bugis for some stuff for our photo shoot. Then off for dinner at some coffee-shop. Tengku booked out that night as he pass his NAFA test. It was great meeting him. Member makin gelap ehk. Kesian.

Chatted forawhile before heading home at 10pm. Yup,went home early as I don't wish to disturb the lovebird. =p

As for Saturday,we went to West Coast. Yup,we went to Kak Lya house for our photo shoot. Only Camy,Anne,Pyja & me were doing it. It was a successful one but very tiring lah sey!! Sumpah tired abis!!!

Just imagine ehk,we went there around 11am but we left her house at 12 midnight sey. Wah!!! Dead tired!! Reached home,shower then immediately die flat on my bed. I was so tired.

Okie,I only took 2 picture of the photo shoot. The rest are with Abang Farid. Once it's ready,I'll post aite. For now,just look at this two lah k. =)

I totally Look Like Kak Lya Sey...

Malu tau aku..Hehe!!!

As for today,woke up at 11am cause I wanted to watch Dang-ou. =p. Have a lil gossip moments with Ibu. N now I'm hog to the computer. =). Will be going for some dinner that was invited by the CC over at Bukit Panjang. Adui!! Malas btol cek!!

I must say life hasn't been good since Tengku & Afuu went for NS. Not that it's because they have to serve NS. It's just that I've been down on my luck & life since Mid-June. I just don't know what I want in my life. I'm losing direction. Someone used to guide me and lead me back to the correct path whenever I lose my way.

He is always giving me advices & knock senses in my head once I started to do something that I shouldn't be doing. But he seems to "lepas tangan" now. Which means,he doesn't really care what I'm doing now.

With this happening,I'm just going against myself. I'm doing things that I never do before. I'm punishing myself for what is happening. I swear I haven't been smiling sincerely. The laugh,the happiness you think you are seeing are all FAKE for now.

So much is happening in HCDs diary. Seriously,I feel helpless. I cant help. I don't know HOW to help. Bodoh kan aku nie?!?

N I'm always getting different versions of stories for them. I trust my HCDs. But if one start to tell different stories than what the other said,just who am I going to trust? I just cant understand. We are supposed to be trusting & always believing in each other.

No matter how bad we turn out to be,No matter what we do,No matter what happened,we should be on each other side. Even if the whole don't agree with us,it's enough that we have each other.

But if things are going this way,it might just corrupt out relationship. It will be a poison killing our friendship slowly & softly. Your enemies cant hurt you cause they are your enemies BUT friends can KILL you. WHY? Cause nothing it more deadly than a stabbed on the back by your friend,the one you trust & love.

I just start to feel that I don't know my HCDs already. They have changed. Yes,I know people changed. I admit I have changed too. But you changed to someone I totally can no longer understand. I'm always curbing my anger at you cause I love you more than I hate your attitude. N I will always do.

Just remember lah,No Matter What You do,I Will Always Love You. I Will Never Never EVER Look Down On You. You Have My Word. Our Friendship mark Our Life more deeply Than LOVE. Love risks Degenerating into Obsession BUT Friendship is Never Anything but Sharing.

"Few Friendship Survive If Each One Knew What His Friend Says Of Him Behind His Back." N our Friendship is the Few Friendship.

Okie lah. Wanna Have a nap before going for the dinner tonight. Till then.. See ya...

PS: I'm Waiting For Your Call....

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