.:``Pretending Is My Best Forte``:.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Hello Hello everybody!!! How are you all doing? I'm doing fine. This week has certainly been a roller coaster ride. Read on and you will know why lah ehk.

Monday
Day at work start as per normal. It was still as demanding as ever!! But I'm coping well now. Worst come to worst, I give my black face to them and wont be talking the whole day. Dah pandai aku skrg tau. Pikir aper!? Free-free nak pijak kepala aku!! Nabei!!

Reached home around 730pm and eat before taking shower. Lepak on bed till 11pm. Watched TV, SMS with peeps. N yah,that's about it!!! Boring Monday!!!

Tuesday
This day was better!!! Went to break fast with Kakak & Anne at Marina Sq. It was kecohrable!!!! But I love it. I get to meet Anne! Too bad, Camy was unable to make it. We even end off the day by eating at Gelare!! We eat the Waffle lah beb!!!

I was so super-duper tired!!! Well,I'm already so used to sleeping at 11pm sey. =p. Texted msg with Bf on the way home as I was afraid I might just miss the bus-stop. Thanks ehk Bf. =)

Reached home,showered and head for bed.

Wednesday
The day start as per normal. It was only during noon I was super-duper pissed off with Bf. Never in our Two Years of Friendship I was pissed off with Bf. But that day,he really trigger my anger nerve.

Not wanting to jump to conclusion like I always do,I even call Bf up to confirm everything first. And he admitted. So there!!!
Signed Sealed Confirmed!!!
N I have every right to be pissed off!!! He betray that trust. He wasn't honest. He ruined the GOOD image I have of him. He was the one who always encourage me BUT he was also the one who pull me down that day!!!

He text me trying to explain his why he did the mistake and so on. But I totally ignore. I wanted to calm myself down before I start to say stuff I don't mean. He was such a disappointment!!! I mean, he as my Bf,he should know what I have been through all this while. N all of things ehk, he made that mistake which to me is super-duper BIG lor.

But being the good Bf he is,he text me again at night. SMS after SMS were exchanged. We end on a bad note that night. I couldn't help but think I have lost the best Bf ever. I mean he can totally tolerate all my behavior. N he was always there to guide me whenever I need direction. He was after all, my pillar of strength sey. Furthermore,I was so dependent on him this past few weeks.

Wasn't able to take back all the SMS sent to him, I just went to bed and try not to think about it. In actual fact, I was totally afraid that Bf wont try to console me. Yah lah,I mean Bf is really nice you know. He will always console me whenever I sulk. But the way he end the SMS that night made me have doubt.

And me,being an egoistic, I rebutted with a very mean reply. I'm such a bad Bf kan? So the night end that way. I went to bed thinking about my friendship with Bf.

Thursday
I was so tempted to text Bf that morning. But being me,I just didnt!! Sometime this nasty attitude made me lose precious people around me sey. Oh well,I'm trying to change thou.

Well,Bf did text me that morning. But his SMS was so hurtful sey. He asked me if I really wanted to sever ALL ties I had with him!! He totally don't understand me sey!! We had a bad argument that morning. But it was all tone down when he apologies. N I can sense it was sincere.

I don't wish to be demanding. His apology was all I need. So people out there,if you think me & Bf end our friendship,then I'm sorry to disappoint you. We did not!! Me & Bf has gone through a lot together,so why not this? And furthermore,I totally cant escape from him. I will meet him even if I don't wish too. Haha!! Btol tak Bf?

In all,I don't wish to lose this Bf of mine. He is just so nice. Bf lain aku semua dah hilang ke maner. They make so many promises but never kept it. This Bf of mine doesn't!! In fact, he doesn't even make promise. All he did to prove me that this friendship worth all the sacrifice was his actions.

Like most people would said,"Action Speaks Louder Than Words."

Friday
I was invited to break fast at Mak Long house. So when there after work. Standard jugak,kalau dah gy J.E and jumper adek, confirm kecoh!!!

N furthermore I wasn't able to pray so me & adek went to lepak at the void deck. =). We even met adek new neighbour.

At about 9pm,we went up again and they almost finish. So watched TV while waited for the rest to finish praying. Kakak was back by then. Cousin meet up!!!! Kecoh semua dalam bilik Nek Mok!! =D

N yah,guess what? Bro & Lil Bro bought their Raya shoe that day at Queensway. Just look lah ehk. I'm so damned jealous!!

Lil Bro Nike Shoe & Capal. He even went to make new spectacle frame!!!

Well, this is Bro Puma Slip On Shoe. Lawa ehk...

N yah,Mum also bought her Raya shoe at OG. Lawa lah sey!!! Gold plak tu!! She asked me to buy her a handbag to along with the shoe. Tengok lah mak aku nie...

Well,they bought their shoe,it's impossible I didnt buy kan. Well,I'm wearing heels this year. Hehe!!!! Unexpected kan. Jangan pandang Mas takder mata okie..... This year,aku Perempuan Melayu Terakhir arh!!!! Hahahaha!!!!!!

So Here it is. My Matching shoe & handbag!! I'm so done with Raya Shopping!!! =D

Saturday
It was a lepak day. I slept till 2pm before watching up to watch a Cooking Show hosted by Sheila Rusly. N guess who her invited celebrity was? It was Fahrin Ahmad lah sey!!!! Ganteng Ganteng bangat!!!! =p

After which,I was getting ready cause Dad has promise to bring the family to Johor. We are going to break fast there and do some shopping.

But to my GREAT disappointment, the traffic jam was super duper massive bad lor!!!! Dad made a U-turn cause confirm confirm we wont be able to make it. Then we start to think where shall we go.

But I was actually nagging at Dad. I have already told him to go before 3pm but he just wouldnt listen lor. So we end up breaking fast at Masjid Sultan. 1st time in my 20 years of life,I break fast in the mosque with other Muslims.

It was a great experience lah. Then we prayed and stayed till terawih. After which, we went to Geylang. Aper lagy?!!

Aku pon mcm hungry ghost arh!!! Beli Ayam Percik, Cheese Hotdog, DengDeng, Burger, Kebab, Takoyaki Balls. Macam-macam kan....Well,indulgance sekejap aku ehk..

Well,went to meet Camy that night. God!! I miss her so much!!! Member macam dah kurus sikit ehk...

Just one Lil message for you B.. Do it again and I will do like you did. N I will do it in front of you too. If you can,I also can!! =). So please remember about other people who cares and love you please. I have never demand anything from you. I just hope you can fulfill this. =)

Reached home,text msg Bf and we chatted on the phone till late. Kinda of remind me what happened two years ago....Hehe!!!

Sunday
I woke up with a bad stomachache. I even went to snuggle up at my parent bed. I don't know why but whenever I'm sick,I must always snuggle up to my parent bed before I will get well. The remedy is always there. Haha!!!

So me & Lil Bro had some fun gurau-ing with each other at my parent bed. Just look at the picture below....

Smile then solemn!! Siak btol!!!

His eyes is so much smaller than mine!!! Hehe!!! =p

Just Layan-ing each other!!!!

Enough about me & Lil Bro. Just wanna show you how my work station look like. This was taken like 2 months ago.....

Now,there are even more stick-on on the side of computer.

I think it's time I should update the pictures there. Some people faces,just turn me off.

Below the table has more files now!! N more files will be coming in. I Just don't know where to keep them!!!

Work is so presurising nowadays. Sometym I just feel like throwing the files away!! Too many lah!!!! Damn!!! Geram jer!!!!

Enough about work lah!!! Well,just to update people who has not met me for a long period of time...This is me now!! I just dyed my hair again. It's light brown now!! =). Dad make a din, but I just keep quiet lor.

Ok lah. I'll end here. I'm so dead beat!!! Gonna head bed soon!!! Nytz people!!!

PS: Bf,please don't make the same mistake again please. Thank you. =)
PS: I'm so done with you!!!
PS: Hope you enjoying your life now!! Thanks & Good-Bye.

9:16 PMY

Sunday, September 07, 2008

Hello everybody!!! I'm back!! =). Wanted to sleep but I cant so here i am in front of the computer. Well,it has been a week since the Fasting month started. How fast time flies.... But indeed this 1st week of fasting has lighten up my life once again. I'm feeling more & more blessed as days goes by. =)

Through out the last 6 days,I only break fast at home twice!!! The rest of the days was booked by my Aunts & Uncles to break fast at their house together.

This is what I love most about fasting month. The bonding I shared with my relatives and all my Aunts and Uncles. I means we break fast together, in which the house will be totally full with people who are hungry and waiting for the Azan. Followed by solat Maghrib together. The final part in which I love the most is solat Isyak & Terawih together. During this time,we will always find "strategic" place so that we can be near the fan. Yup,I'll always argue with my Aunts to get the best place.

I think Ramadhan month has a lot of benefits in my family. Usually when will I get to manja-manja with my Aunts? It is like almost impossible if it is not Ramadhan. All will be busy working. We will meet like only once a month. But during Ramadhan,we can meet like almost every week lah sey!!!

Okie,enough about it aite. Shall start with the updating. But thousand apologies,no pictures ehk. =).

Monday

Start of fasting Month. It was torturing for me. I had a bad migraine from Saturday and it stays on. N to make it worst,I was assigned to do opening for this week.

To add on to my suffering,I had so many things to clear at work. Managers are pilling up my table with paper works & assessment for me to follow up and do necessary actions. Damned!! I could curse & swear but I didn't cause my migraine has made me a quiet person. I just couldn't be bothered to argue whatsoever lah ehk. I went on doing my work and took a 45-mins nap during lunch.

After work,I went to Teck Whye. Yes,I was still having my migraine while on the way day. I feel like the world was on my head lah sey!!! Totally cant take it.

Arrived at Teck Whye,straight away asked my Lil Cousin to get off the bed as I feel giddy. Then started to complain to Granny about it. N even Mak Ngah became my victim of complain. They have no choice but to hear to my whining. I only stop when Mak Ngah told me she will give me some medicine to sooth the pain.

Rest for awhile before solat Asar then at 7.09pm,I break fast with my Family & Relatives. We had Nasi Lemak together with Sambal Kupang& Sotong plus Fried Chicken. Not forgetting the Sardine Roll & Roti John. Fulamak!!! Selera abis!!! Migraine pon hilang lah sey!!! =p

After breaking fast,prayed and lepak2 with the cousins. N guess what? Cik An & Cik Siah just bought the New Osim Massage chair. Aper lagy?!? TRY ah!!! Everyone took turns trying it. I even asked Dad to buy one for himself. But he seems unwilling cause it cost THOUSANDS lah sey!!!!

After all the kajun-ing moments,we prayed and all. Ended everything at 9.30pm. Pack all the food that we wanted to bring home then off we went!!

Reached home and I straight away head for bed after taking 4 tablets of Panadol Extra.

Tuesday

I woke up with headaches again!! Still,I went to work and everything. I just cant take MC. Too many work are waiting for me. If I further delay,I might just end up with more work.

Went home at 530pm. Break fast with Mum's All-Time favourite Mee Hoon Soto with Mashed Potato!!! Sedap lah sey!!!!

Then did my prayers before heading to bed at 10pm. N it's all because of my headache!!

Wednesday

It was better. I didn't woke up with a headache. I'm not sure if it's because of the Brand's Berry Essense I drank the previous day or is it because I took the Panadol Extra too much. Don't know lah ehk.

Well,to add on,I dreamt of Imi sey. Don't know why suddenly dream of him. Padahal,dah lamer tak jumper sey. But the dream wasn't that good lah. He was actually scolding me cause I did something silly and he was pissed. Okie,enough about him lah. Nanti rindu plak aku dgn dier.

So,off to work and normal lah. I manage to finish what is needed to be done. Though the migraine strike again during noon,but it wasn't that bad lah.

Went home at 535pm. N guess what Mum cook? Nasi Goreng Plus Fried Chicken lah sey!!!! Shoik habis!!!! To add on,Mum made jemput-jemput Roti. Alamak!! Best nyer!!! =)

After breaking fast,took a shower n prayed before heading to bed and watched TV till 11pm.

Thursday

I woke up dreaming of Imi again. N it's the same dream. He was scolding me because of my silly act. Asal ehk? Has something happened to him? It seems like the dream is trying to tell me something.

Work wasnt so much fun. My co-partner is on MC. No shoik!!! So I just do my stuff slowly lor since not even my managers are around. Kire LEPAK ah!!! Work till 535pm then off I went off.

Stopped by McD to pass Abang Zaihan some stuff but forgotten it was his day off. Going to McD just make me reminise the precious moments I spent there with the crew. N it was just last year that I went through that. Breaking fast at McD,even SAHUR with all the crews and sometime manager. God!! I miss those times.

Well,I have plans in going back working in McD after Raya. Since weekends now are not like it used to be,I rather work than just staying home doing nothing!!!Will see about that.

After having a Lil-chat with Wanie,I immediately went to catch the bus and head to Mak Ngah's house. Yup,we were all breaking fast at her house that day.

Like usual,break fast together,then solat all together. Kire mcm together2 lah semua nyer. =D

Well,after solat,my Migraine like somehow came. Asked Mak Ngah for some medicine and took it. Then Mak Ngah gave me the few more just in case I might need it.

Went home and head for bed cause I started to feel sleepy. Must be that medicine!!

Friday
Last day of opening!!! Well,not many came for work as they had external training and 2 of my colleague was on Leave while 2 was on MC. End up left me,my RO and my Team Leader. I did my work rather slow. No one is around mah,why should I care? People are just pilling their work at me and me being so stupid,help them do it!!! Bodoh!!

If they can do that way,well...I can do it too.

Enough about work. That Friday was 5th Sept 08. N do you people know what that means? Well,it's my Bf Birthday okie!!! Hehe!!! =).

Well,I didn't wish him at the stroke of Midnight like how I always use to do for people birthday. In fact,I didn't even wish him in the morning when I woke up. It's not that I have forgotten about it. No!! Never Okie!!! I just has plans lah. I wanted to be the last person who wish him on his Birthday. Reason being that people always said "Save the Best for the Last". =).

But I was very tempted to wish him when Bf msg me in the evening. Guess what he said? He said that I forgot his birthday!!!! Damn!!! How can he say that!?!? Not even in many years to come will I forget his Birthday or even any of my Dollies Birthday. Pretend to forget maybe yes ah. =p

So yah,I msg him at around 11pm. In all,I hope that he will have a better year ahead of him. May happiness be with him always. Hope he can stay strong. That all I'm praying for him now. =). Btw ehk Bf,I have gotten your present. And I'm damn sure you will love it!!! =D

Okie enough about Bf Birthday. Moving on,Friday was my dad's turn. Well,all my relatives were coming to my house to break fast lah!!! Went home with Kakak Khairiah who was so willing not to take the cab with her Mum but instead took the bus with me. =)

Like always,whenever I'm with Kakak,I will always laugh non-stop because of all her stories with her Boifey. I'm going to tell Camy & Anne soon. I'm sure they will laugh their ass off when they hear it.

Reached home and almost all has arrived. I quickly solat Asar before helping out at the kitchen. Guess what Mum cook? Mum cook Nasi Minyak ehk!!!! N the dishes were Curry Chicken (My Fav), Sweet & Sour Fish & Salad Rojak. Not forgetting Zam Zam Murtabak Daging which Cik Yaya bring and Rojak Bandung which Mak Long bring. Alamak beb!!!! Selera abis lah sey!!!

Me & Kakak was aiming for the Rojak Bandung cause it was our favorite!!! In all,I think it was great ah! =)

After eating,as usual lor. Prayed together and all ends well at 930pm. =)

Bro & Lil Sis went to sent Granny & Nek Mok to home at Bukit Panjang while the rest of us stayed and clean up the house. Well,I vacuum and Dad mopped the floor. Lil Bro folded all the tikar back & Mum was in the kitchen doing the dishes. =)

Head for bed at 12am after text-ing with Bf.

Saturday
Had to go for my LCCI class at 2pm then head to Toa Payoh. Meet up some friends before heading to Bukit Panjang. Yup,it was at Granny house this time around.

Guess what Granny cook? Black Pepper Crab lah sey!!!! Alamak bebey!!! My favourite but can also say my enemy. Reason being I'm allergic to seafood. Damn! But I don't care. I just eat! Of course I didn't eat too much lah. I don't want to find myself itching & scratching the whole night.

To add on,there was Mee Hoon Beryani with Ayam Rendang. N there was Ondeh-ondeh & watermelon & grapes!!!!! =). Best ehk bulan puaser. Semua makanan favourite aku ader!!! =D

After eating,as usual,prayed together before all head home. =)

As for today,I'm breaking fast at home. Not sure what Mum will be cooking. She's watching Cinta Fitri now. =p. As for me,I'll head bed as soon as I finish this. I'm weak....Puaser lah kater kan...Haha!!!!

Hmm,I'm not sure of next week schedule. Where I'll be breaking fast and all. But I'm sure about Tuesday. I'll be breaking fast with Kakak and maybe even Anne & Camy will be joining. That is one day I'm looking forward too!!!! =D

With this week being so joyful for me,I'm not sure about other Dollies. I hope there are doing okie. Hope they can find the peace in this month like what I'm trying to do now. =)

I want to admit something here. I was a bad girl on Wednesday. I met someone. I'm very very very close with this someone. But the thing is,I didn't even approach her when I saw her. I just walk and walk lor. I don't know why I react in such a way. But I felt guilty. Then to think again,maybe she saw me too but didn't say hi. I don't know. In all,I just want to say I'm Sorry.

Well,someone has always said,"If you don't like what people do to you,You don't do to people". Indeed it is true. Someone always knock sense into my head. Someone someone!! Kesian takder namer ehk nie someone. Hehe!!! Okie,let's just name this someone, Fahrin. Reason? Well,I just love the actor Fahrin. Hehe!! N well,he is as nice as Fahrin I must say. Haha!!!

Lately,I've been thinking about Imi alot. Maybe it's because of the dream that has been recurring for few nights. I just wonder how he is doing now. He's a nice chap! Looking at his video when we used to hang-out and go crazy together make me miss him even more!! Well,I just hope he is doing great! I wish him all the best. I don't know why but no matter who I'm with,my heart always run back to him at the end of the day.

Okie,enough updating. I'm dead tired. Will update again next week aite! See ya. Till then,take care!!

PS: Yes,I think about you even when I was with him!

2:07 PMY