.:``Pretending Is My Best Forte``:.

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Once again the feeling of giving up and losing confident of myself overcome me. I really hate this feeling. I could say that this is my very vulnerable period. I can cry without a reason anytime. I will get very sensitive about what people said to me. I may not be affected during other time but if someone disturb me during this period,I can get very emotionally.

To make it worst,I can be laughing and smiling one moment but at the very next moment I can be angry or feel so sad to the extend I will cry. What is that sia?

I don't understand why I'm feeling this way. Now I don't have any confident in myself. I feel that I'm very useless and no one needs me at all. I feel my present in this world is redundant. Even if I'm not around,I guess no one will get effected by it. So why am I here? Can I just slowly disappear?

But I know if I were to do that,my Swytaz will be pissed off. I don't wanna do shit to them anymore. I've been a bad friend to them before and I don't want to to that again. I don't want to hurt them anymore.

Still the feeling of being useless and having that very very very low confident in myself is just too strong ah. I'm losing myself. I cant help it but cried. Yah,I did. N this is my second time crying without a reason. What come over me also I don't understand. I just feel sad and tears started to flow. I don't know I'm crying for what ah. I just cant find the reason.

I feel the same everlasting pain. The pain of losing my precious ones. My thoughts run wild each time I think about my loved ones leaving me. This will usually happens when I keep having enjoyable moments. There is a saying " Happy moments are always short-lived". I'm scared of losing the happy moments I'm having now.

Seriously,I'm afraid of losing Dora,Darling,Dearie,Rahmat and Ezat. They have been my joy and happiness. There are the one who bring the smile & joy in my life. I'm happy with them. But usually our happiness doesn't last long. There will always be a hurdle. A moment where problems will occur and I know I would lose them if I don't do anything about it.

It is such a fucking situation. I hate going through it. But it will always come. Now I just feel like keeping quiet. Don't want to do anything. Don't want to say anything. I want a quiet moment. I hope I get over this feeling soon ah. I'm celebrating my nephew birthday in few days time. I cant be going there feeling like this. It's gonna sucks!! Guess I'll just have to find my own remedy for my own feeling.

Before I end this,I'm just going to apologize to all who are going to get affected or has been affected by my stupid drastic mood swing. Sometime I just have no control over it. I'm sorry if my words or actions hurt you. So sorry. I'll be back soon. Don't worry. Just give me a day or two. I know what to do k. Sorry once again.

1:25 AMY

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I've just realised I've yet to reply to any of my taggers ehk. Hey thanks so much for tagging. Keep it coming k.

jannah: weak ?? nonononono!! Practisee makes PREFECT!! i'm here ! i cann make youu GREAT!!

loves!
maS: yah2. I'm trying to practise everything back. Hope the managers gv me a chance to practise. =)

tengku: wei..hehe..dis week mst b d most happening week 4 u ehk..biaselah,ezat ader..hehe..lets rock beb!!! btw,stail ar blog kao..very funky..hehe..
maS: hehe!!! yelah2.. sbb kau ader lah. funky ehk? mesti ah. tgk ah org nyer... hehe!! =p

Rahmat: dgr2 dh lupe aku..
maS: ish!! maner ader!!! aku tk pernah luper kan kau sak.. serious!

Dora: Mashi Shreek teo~~Weii..dgr2 tk payah la nk blang org wad realli happen seh..v the maluu tau..takpe mas..t ,pyja & lil lulu balas alik AR...tunggu jer!
maS: wei!! kermit the frog!!!! krg dh balas alik pon ehk. mission dah accomplished kan...

mrs kyo: heh heh my new nick...erm...sayang aku tak?...kalau syg g tukar skin ok..asek green n black..y not pink n black?...naisshhhh
maS: hehe!! mesti ah syg!! tapy kan,aku btol2 tak tau tukar skin sei. harapkn org jer tau. =p

2:40 AMY

``The Trio`` * Ayen Said It*

``My One & Only Manja Lil Bro.``

``Behind Those Eyes Is Another Different Person``

``That Same Smile``

``Just Reached & He Was Hungry``

^^ Just So Vain ah Baby nie.^^

^^Love Him Always & Forever^^

^^ That Fingers That I Always Bite^^

^^Yesh Mama Siti,What Can I Do for You?^^

^^ Mama Siti,Don't Disturb me lah^^

1:51 AMY

Helo!! How are you people doing? Hope you are doing great. Hmm,how's life been doing for me? It has been kinda great. My nephews has already turn one year old yesterday. Happy Birthday Mohammad Irfan Azhari!!!!!!! Love love love you loadz!!!!! Muax!!! Muax!!! Muax!!! =D

Wednesday
I went for my morning class and I was early ehk. When I reached,there were only 5 people in the class. And I ended class early, so I went to my aunt's house and Mr Irfan Azhari was there. He was not awake yet. Since I was kinda tired,I also slept ehk. When I woke up,he was already awake. Hehe!! HE was so cute. He came running to me with his walker. Macam touching sei. =) Makin sayang aku dengan dier sorang nie!!! Hehe!!!

So lepak2 with him and all. Mak ai,punyer lah tak bleh diam. Penat jager dier sorang. Turun naik sofa,panjat badan aku,merangkak hulur hilir.. Wah duh!!! Penat-penat!!!! I even left the house slightly late cause of him. He doesn't want to sit in his walker so end up I have to carry him while wearing my socks and shoes. My aunt was kinda busy cooking. Then carry him out of the house. Wah,happy ehk member. Hehe!! But then,I called out for my aunt cause I was really getting late.

Finished school at about 2 plus. Went home and zZzZzZz. So tired. Dora asked me to accompany her for a jog but I was just too tired & LAZY!!!!

Finally head for the bed at about 12am.

Thursday
Lepak lepak lepak. Went school at 9am and end at 1pm. Like so P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C!!!!! Never mind ah,since debarment list has not been out yet,I will go to school.=) After school,head for bed and woke up at 4pm. Have my shower & get ready to go out with Ezat to town. He was supposed to accompany me to survey Irfan's Birthday gift. In which,I have already found it. Hehe!! Will get it during my next pay ah. =D

Arrived only at Somerset,he was already hungry like ghost. * Mentang2 lah Hungry Ghost festival* So we had dinner at Burger King before going all over to search for the best gift ever. Left town at about 8 and we head down to Taman Jurong. Wah,Ezat was so kanchoing sak. We wanted to fetch Dora who ends her shift at 830pm. So we were kinda late and all ah. Ezat was so restless in the MRT. Cant sit still and keep looking at his Arsenal watch. I find him funny ah. Alah,skali skale lambat takde apaper mah.

Arrived at Lakeside and he wanted to get for Dora some stuff. Like "oh,okie". Wah,nak pilih pon punyer lah lembab!!!!! But It was okie after that. While waiting for the bus,*this part lagy aku stress* he was like cursing & swearing as to why the bus was late and why wasn't there any cab. He really wanted to take the cab but there weren't any. He was so frustrated sak.

Like finally when we arrived,you can see that relief reaction on his face. Tak sabar2 nak jumper bini dier!!!! N yah,lotsa stuff happened on the way back home. Laughed so happily ehk especially the time when Dora offer him her Panda biscuit and his reply was so sweeeetttttttt!!! Hehe!!!

Well,as usual,the result of disturbing them,I kena terok from Dora. I also kena from Ezat but he was very clever,he never do it in front of Dora. I kena frm him when we were walking home. Step nak jage image ah konon!!!

Reached home,watched my all time favourite drama,Prison Break!!! Wentworth Miller is forever HOT!!! Hehe!!!

After watching,had my shower and all before all the three of us conference on the phone. Chatted till about 2am before we all head for bed.

Friday
Though of not going to school but then there was no one at home so I went to school ah. Finished school at about 1pm then went home for a nap before getting ready for work. Work till 12am then went home. Didn't stay till closing cause I wasn't in the mood.

Reached home,shower and all. Message with Ezat till 2am before went for bed.

Saturday
Work at 11am till 6pm. Reached late because of that bus ah. Ader ker patut rosak!!! Nabei!!! That day was really guest in sak. It has been two weeks since the sales of my company wasn't as good as this. I was so tired.

Something eerie happened when I reached home. Message Ezat immediately sak. I was so scared lah sey!!!! At night,conference with Dora & Ezat again till late before heading for bed.

Sunday
Woke up at 9am despite sleeping at 3am. Was so damned sleepy sak but since I have promise Ezat & Dora for breakfast,I got no choice ah. So yah we had breakfast and all before I report for work at 12nn. So nice of them to wait till I report for work ehk....

Work was okie ah. Abit relek cause I was assigned to wash the ketchup packets. Don't who was so "clever" as to dropped the Hotcakes syrup into the box. End up I had to wash 3000 packets of ketchup and wipe them dry sei!!! It took me 1 hour to finish everything sak. Luckily after that,they allow me go break. *Thank God*

But I didn't eat ah,I just drank some water. I was still full because of the breakfast. Continue working till 6pm cause I was going to celebrate my Lil nephew birthday!!!! Waited for my cousin,her husband,Rahmat & Irfan to arrive. While waiting,chatted with Nicholas & Francis. Pity Nicholas alot. Facing problems in his relationship. Haiya. Hope everything will get better soon. So unused seeing him like that sei.

After my cousin arrived,went to search for Irfan's birthday cake. Then went out for dinner at Makan Shoik!!! Finally I had Fish & chips after so loooooonnnngggg craving for it. =) Obek Ju & Lan joined us. Irfan was happy ehk. Suker dier bbl kat telepon. Hehe!!

Obek sent me home. Reached at about 8 plus and rested before hogging online. But too bad,had a migraine so I went & head for bed.

Monday
Unexpectedly,I was supposed to work ehk. The attachment manager called me and said I was on schedule. So came for work from school sey. End up using the wardrobe uniform but wear my school shoe sei. Started work at 430pm till 10pm. Waited for Bryan & Ezat before going home together. Ezat pissed me out that night. I tell you,I was like literally shouting at him ah. He keeps disturbing me sei. Wah,I think my blood pressure for that night shoot up ah.

Some stuff happened and it was a totally unexpected. Though you were such a disappointment but I guess everything happened for a reason. I no longer blame you and you are already forgiven. But still, I'm still trying to come to term with the fact that you betray my trust. Dont worry lah,I'm a very forgetful person. I get over with things very easily. So please ehk,dont still think that I'm angry with you or what lah k. You are still my one & only lil bro!!! N I love you still. =D

Tuesday
Woke up at 7am and get ready. Accompany Ezat for opening and all. Chat and chat for two hours and all. Then Jakin came. He sent me to school lah se. He drive to me school.... Hehe!! Macam "wah sey!!" kan. Hehe. He passed even later then me but he driving like a professional lah sei. Luckily he drive cause it was raining so heavily and I didn't bring any umbrella along. Bodoh Kan?!

So yah,reached school at about 1020am and like there weren't much people around sei. Finished at 2pm and head back home. I was drenched and shivering in the bus sei but end up I fall asleep in the bus and miss my stop. Like how great that is kan. -.-

Reached home at about 3 plus and continue with my nap till 5pm before getting ready for work. I was like so lazy sei. The weather was so nice lah. But still,I did went to work. Work till 1030pm. After that,had my breakfast plus lunch plus dinner. I was so damned hungry sak.

Now I'm back at my crib. I cant seem to get into friendster sey. Don't know what shit they are talking about ah. Cant bothered!!!!

Working again tomorrow from 6pm till 10pm. N from 1 September,will be taking two weeks off for my exams. Macam btol jer. Hehe!!! Klah,wanna head for bed. Tomorrow lesson at 9am sei!! Don't wanna be late ah. =)

K lah.. till then... Oh,yah..will post some pictures later.

PS: Love you still. =)

1:44 AMY

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Hello!!! It is gonna be 1am in about two minutes time. Should be asleep as I have My Banking Class tomorrow at 9am. Well,going to head for bed as soon as I finish blogging. =)

The past few days has been going rather well. I was happy. Celebrating Dearie's Birthday,watching movie and fireworks, working and spending time with my Lil Bro,it was all great ah.

Thursday
I woke up at 5am even though I slept at 1am sey. I couldn't get back to sleep so I played the computer and took a shower at 730am,head for school. That day Dora forget to bring her cell phone to work thus contacting her was rather a hassle.

Was supposed to fetch her with Ezat from work but Ezat was down with fever. I went to fetch her alone and after which, we lepak at her house till 1130pm as I watched Prison Break at her room.

Head for bed at about 1am.

Friday
Getting ready for Dearie's Birthday. Present was wrapped,card were already written and designed. In school,we did some last minute designing for her card. Head home after school and took a nap before getting ready.

Our meeting time was 4pm. As we were going to watch Rush Hour 3 at 645pm. Rush like hell as all were late!!!! Mentang2 nak tgk Rush Hour. hehe!! We arrived City Hall at 630pm. Dora came even later. We went in to the cinema at about 710pm. Luckily the movie has not start.

It was a great movie. I love it!!! I laughed like nobody business. It was so lepak!!!! After the movie,we went out to watch the fireworks. It started late so we kinda have to wait. Macam siak. It was so hot and so crowded sei. I almost couldn't take it. But never mind lor,it is not always we get to watch the fireworks mah.

After watching it,went to Lau Pa Sat for supper. Mak ai!!! The bus was really slow lah sey. We arrived at Lau Pa Sat at about 1030pm. Met Mija and Ejat. Both were there. So yah,had our Satays,chicken wings and all time Dearie's favourite Jellyfish Rojak. =)

Left that place at 1130pm after taking pictures and shared lotsa laughter. We were afraid that we might miss our last bus.

Indeed,we miss it cause Dora,Me and Dearie dropped by McD to meet Ezat. Dora bought Ezat some stuff as to motivate him doing closing. N being me, the moment I meet my McD family members, we chatted and laugh. So we came home rather late. We left McD at about 1am after Dora's dad called. Opppssss!!!!

Went home,shower then head for bed.

Saturday
Work at 11am till 730pm. Francis also work. Like always ah,forever arguing and not agreeing about everything. Nicholas was also working but half way,he went to cafe side. =( Francis sent him away. My counter partner sak!!! =( He came back only at 6pm.

After work,waited for Nick. He wanted to buy Street Directory as he just pass his motorbike lisence. N it seems all the three of us, Nick,Me & Francis, don't know how to read it ehk. Arguing and Arguing in the Popular Bookstore. End up,Nick said, " Never mind ah, I go home study this book myself ah." Hehe!!!

After that,went to search for his 'P' plate. But couldn't get at anywhere. So went back to store and rest before we all go home at about 930pm.

Reached home and there was no one. All went to my Aunt's chalet. Wah!! N to make it worst, I was sick!! My gastric struck!!! I was shivering and perspiring like hell. Message my Swytaz and my Lil Bro. Then called my mum. Took my Actal pill then head for bed.

At 0015, Ezat called asking if I was doing okie. N by that time,indeed I was already okie.

Sunday
Woke up at 930pm, then went for breakfast with Mr & Mrs Ezat. Then head for work. Start at 12 noon. Wah!! First time I was so stress doing kitchen sia. Stress Stress Stress!!! N Nick has to swapped section with me cause I cant handle. Luckily Ann Nee took over shift and let me do counter. That part, I okie already. =)

Woke till 830pm then lepak awhile with Nick & Phillip before going home. Reached home,shower then head for bed. Tired!

Monday
Woke up at 9am. Did my Marketing presentation till 11am before getting ready for school. I'm like finally over with all projects and presentation sey. Yippppeeeee!!!!!

At night,went for class then went home watched this M'sia movie,Castello, till 1am. Head for bed!

Tuesday( Happening giler!!!)
Okie. I woke up at 5am to wake up my lil bro. He was doing opening today. Then I woke up at 7am. Promise my Lil Bro that I'm going to accompany him for his shift. So yah,reached McCafe at 8am. Stayed there and chat with him till 10am before going to school.

Reached school,ate the Oreo cheesecake he packed for me before doing my revision. Teacher was also not around so I played Diner Dash after that. Come 12noon,had lunch and all. Ezat called and told me Francis was at store.

N guess what? He passed the phone to Francis and let me chat with him sak. I was like,"ape nak cakap ehk?" End up, we argue sei cause he keep disturbing me and I keep laughing at him when he talk. He like stammer when he speaks sak. Then Ezat took back the phone and I was cursing and swearing at him.

Wah!!! Then he pass the phone to Francis once again sak. N as you can guess, argue ah. Told him not to disturb me talking to Ezat and all. Ask him to shut up. Then he ask me to shut also sak. =( Nabei!!! Hehe!!!

Then went for an hour of Office before going to Jurong Point. Arrived and Francis was still there. Arrived only,he wants to find fault with me. Haix. Then we end up arguing in front of Aeron who was having lunch. Kesian member jady mangser kiter bergadoh. =p

After lepak, me & ezat went to Toy 'R' Us. He wanted to get for Dora a Barney soft toy. Hehe!! We couldn't find a suitable one so we head down to Kiddy Palace. N we found one and in additional,Ezat get her a Dora's water bottle ehk. Romantic ehk. =p

He wanted me to accompany him to give the present to Dora as he was shy. So yah,at 830pm, we went to Dora's void deck and pass her the present. What happened there was just so hilarious. Hehe!!! N yah,all was very unpredictable. =)

I'm happy that now Dora feel her life is full of happiness and sweet memories. She was so delighted when she receive the gift from Ezat. Her facial expression says it all. I hope that they will continue to be there for each other when in need. I'm here just to guide but the rest is still up to the both of you. Since both of you are seriously and sincerely liking each other, just take it slow and who knows, after the "two" years, you might just be together. Take things slow aite. Don't rush. You both still has a loong way to go. =D

K lah. Till then.

PS: I Love The Way You Joke With Me Today. So Manjer. =p

12:49 AMY

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Fuuuuyyyyoooooo!!!!! It has been exactly two weeks since I last updated my dusty blog ehk. Not that I dont want to update,but I got more important things to attend to. So So Sorry to all my faithful readers who keeps waiting. *Step mcm byk org bacer blog aku jer =p*

I'm not going to rant into details about my last two weeks. I guess I'll just blog what happened that made an impact on me. =)

4th August,Saturday
I was working and totally very very tired. I don't know why suddenly there were so many guests. End up extend till 12 am when I actually finished at 11pm ah. Stayed till closing as Ezat,Kak Rina & me wanted to supper. Closing was so fun!!! Of course ah,my handsome & cute manager was also doing closing. N it has been a long time since he does closing. He was like so blur sak. =D

After closing at about 3 plus am,we went supper at the coffee shop opposite my blk. Chat and chat till dawn and I went home at about 530am. N the great thing is that, I have a breakfast date with Dora that morning at 10am ehk.

Just imagine how tired I was during work. And I get to know that the others when home at 7am. But at least they work afternoon shift sei. Not as rabak as me sia. I was dead tired. Luckily Francis, Kak Rina, Nicholas were all there to cheer me up and not remind me of the tiredness. Still, I was extend that night cause guest was very in. Work till 10pm ehk. Met ezat and chatted with him and all.

9th August,Thursday
I love the day. It was National Day and all of us have to wear this red t-shirt. I think it's nice ah. I love it better than our uniform ah. Hehe!!! And all the managers are wearing it too sia. Cool right. It was great working that day. Lots of laughter were shared among managers and crews espcially during the break time. Haha!!! Jannah and Ann Nee would know what happened. =)

At night, went shopping with Dora. Bought birthday gift for Jiling and all. Wah,I kena terok from Francis sak that day. He teased me non-stop and was very sarcastic sia. My blood kinda boils ehk. I was like "Duh,whatever!!!!". =)

10 August,Friday
As usual,working. Even miss Dearie Birthday pit and family picnic ehk. Macam siak ehk. I finish work at 1030pm sey,how to go sak. Even if I do,I would be arriving very late. So end up,went home with Ezat and Mirul who finished at 1130pm. We walk home ehk. Reached Ezat void deck and we chatted till late. Went home at 230am.

Weekends
Work and work. But luckily not so busy ah. Chatted with Nicholas and all. He is sucha fun guy lah. It was great talking to him sei. Go home at 12am on Saturday. Though of finishing up Marketing project but I was damned tired. So I slept till the next working day.

Sunday went home at 8pm. Went for dinner with Dora. Reached home,sleep first till 10pm. Woke up then all the way till 5am do my marketing project. I was so stress at the budget part. Mak ai!!! Kepala hotak boleh pecah lah sei.

Woke up at 9am,get ready to school. My only reason for going to school was to submit my Marketing project. In which,I really did. After submitting my project,I went home and met my cousin,Kak Lia. Kak Lia,Abg Farid,Cassandra,Baby Irfan & me all went to Concourse to buy Irfan birthday bash things. =)

But before that,we went to this 'ulu' place ah. Kak Lia needed to buy some stuff for her cosmetic lesson. Me & Irfan waited outside till we fall asleep ehk. I was so sleepy sei!!! I was sleeping sitting down and when I woke up,Abg Farid laughed at me sia. =(

Outing with Baby Irfan was great. Cant wait for his birthday chalet this coming 31st Aug till 2 Sept. Separate with them at 7pm as I was going to meet Dora so that we will go home together. Met her at Raffles then met Ezat at Boon Lay and we all went home together. Chat and chat non stop sia we three. Haha!!!

Reached home and my mum ask me to get ready. She wanted me to follow her to the mosque to hear this 'syarahan' by Uztat TM Fouzy. So yah,I changed then we head to the mosque and the syarahan ended at 11pm ehk. My god!!! I was so tired sey. Went home,didnt sleep immediately as was busy messaging with Dora & Ezat. Guess I slept at 2am ah.

Tuesday
Went school at 10am. Didn't do much. Played game ehk,Crazy Taxi. Fun!!! Fun!! Fun!!! After school,went to Jurong Point. Had a lunch date with Lil bro,Ezat. =) Then we went to cut his hair. Buy some stuff before heading home.

Did some revision at night then watched TV till late before going to bed at 1am.

Wednesday
I went for Banking class okie. I was early. I came at 9am exactly!!! So proud of myself!!! =) Then during break,I went to Jurong East Library ehk. Lonely!! Darling haven't come school yet. So independent sak.

Went home with Darling just now though she alight at Jurong East bus stop. But at least better then I going home alone. I'm still not used to the fact that she live in Eunos now.

Okie. I've updated. More or less,that's what happened the past few days. Now for the next event that I'm waiting for is Dearie Bday Celebration. We are gonna celebrate it this Friday!! Yippeeee!!!!

K lah,till then.

PS: I Miss You Larh!!!

8:35 PMY

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

My mood swing is getting from bad to worst. I'm not sure if it's because of PMS or what. But all I know is that I totally feel horrible. I tend to ignore almost everyone. I simply don't laugh nor smile sincerely. I don't eat much. I just went through my day meaninglessly. My patience run out fast. I get irritated by people easily. Lucky for me, my self-control is okie. If not,I would be getting into arguments with everyone.

My mind is always blank. I cant concentrate on what I'm doing. I get pissed off with people when they ask me too many questions. All I want to do is to be alone. All of the sudden I feel suffocated with my life. I feel that I'm just shouldering too much responsibility. I feel that I no longer taking life as happily as before. I'm thinking to much on what I should be doing and what if I don't achieve them.

Suddenly,all this are too heavy for me to cope. Expectation from them are too high for me to achieve. But I don't want to let them down. They have high hope on me. But I'm tired trying to please everyone. I'm thinking too much. Thinking too much on how to make people happy but I never though about myself.

When is the last time I ever spent something on myself?
When is the last time I ever pamper myself to great indulgent?
When is the last time I ever spent personal moments on my own?
I cant even remember when!!! It has certainly been a long time. My life now revolve with school,work,family and friends. No time for myself. Totally zero moments on my own.

For once,I actually broke down. I couldn't believe it either. I used to be a strong gerl who doesn't cry easily. But today, I actually did. N to make worst, I was actually with my mum and lil bro when I cried. Of course they didn't notice it ah. I was silently crying. I just cry suddenly. I couldn't think of any reasons why I cried. It's just weird for me.

I'm not blaming anyone for the plight I'm in now. I guess God wants to test if I'm strong enough to handle this kind of situation. I failed. I'm not strong enough. I cant handle it. Now,I'm just praying and asking God to give me the strength to go on and get my life back.

I hope this will be over soon. I miss laughing out loud. I miss talking crap with my friends. I miss smiling sincerely to the people I met. I really want to get my mood back as soon as possible.

Typing all my feeling out has certainly made me feel slightly better. Hope it get better in the coming days.

8:54 PMY

Helo helo helo people!! It has been awhile since I last update ehk. Usually by Monday I would have update but I did not. I was rather tired ah. So yah,let's back track what I did the last few days ehk. It has been that great. Had lotsa mood swing sak.

Friday
As usual,I was a bit late for morning class. But there wasn't any class as the teacher had to invigilate a class for their exam. She told us to finish doing our project. So yah,that's what we did. So now,OA project are done and has already been signed,sealed and delivered!!! =D

After school,was supposed to go my grandma house but I was too tired. So I fall asleep instead. I was even late in meeting Darling and Fyza. Yup,Fyza!!! My long lost bestfren. Her guy finally allow us to meet up sey. So I met them at 5pm instead of the promised time at 4pm. We chatted and had dinner at Long John Silver.

At 6pm,I had to work. So yup,work till 12am but stayed till closing with Kak Rina. Went for supper after that and went home at 430am ehk.

Saturday
Work at 11am. So by 945am,I was already awake. Work and work till 8pm. Nothing much happen just that guest were very in. Really really lotsa people sak!!! My leg was so tired!!!

After work,I went home straight sak. Shower and all. Watched TV till late.

Sunday
Work at 12nn. Mum sent me to work as she was going to Jurong Point as well. I was like totally off mood that day. I don't know why sak. My mood was like shit. Totally ignore everybody sey. But luckily Jakin was there beside me to cheer me up. Then my manager,Phillip,was also there to make things better for me. Thanks them for it.

Finished at 830pm. I had to asked Phillip to let me punched out as my mum wanted me to go Bukit Panjang to visit my Grandma. He was rather reluctant as there were indeed lotsa people sak. I was so tired!!! Luckily managed to get out of the counter as soon as there weren't any people.

Went to Bukit Panjang. My grandma told me that it has been a long time since she last met me. I just smiled. I know it has been more than a month since I last visited her. So yah,had supper then head home.

Shower and all then head for bed. Tired!

Monday
Did our OA presentation slide. Managed to finish it rather fast. Not much happened ah. Normal routine school stuff.

Tuesday
Finish class at 2pm. Head home and had my nap till 530pm. Watched TV till late then head for bed. But I only managed to sleep at 4am sey. Keep tossing and turning.

As for today,I woke up at 9am even though my lesson starts at 9am. Mcm siak kan. N guess what? When I arrived school,lesson has already ended!! So here I am, in Self-Access room,updating my blog and waiting for Darling to come.

I'm gonna do my OA presentation later. Hope I will do fine. Now,I'm only left with Marketing project and presentation. The date due is on 13th August. Hope I can finish it by then. As for now,I'm gonna wait for Darling while doing my Marketing project. =)

K lah people. Till then.

PS: Oh,how much I miss you.

10:20 AMY